Life is given to us by our God. Its not to be taken for granted, neither is it to be toyed with. Life is for us to cherish, for us to know that God loves us.

What I'm trying to say is that, we are all human beings and we are likely to err. There shouldn't be a point in time where you feel insecure or upset about what mistakes you did.

Let me introduce more about myself. I've completely forgotten about the existence of this very blog and only get back recently. I've grown. I've grown mature and I wouldn't dare say I know life very well, but I do know life as a teenager in the twenty-first century. I'm not gonna say I'm like any typical Singaporean girl- that is too cliche. I'm a student now in a local university, doing well and being one of the busy bees in school with all the various activities. However, I've to confess that even with so many activities in my hands, I still feel insecure with being with most of my friends.

Yes, I am afterall a normal breathing person and I do feel the insecurities. Initially, I thought it was a problem of mine, but after having Heart-Heart Sessions with my closest friends in school, I realise, it's not just my problem. Most of the people are feeling the same way! Insecurities are in us, but I guess it's not just to show that we are vulnerable. To me, it is God's way of showing his love for us. When we feel insecure, we tend to rely. But, only recently do I realised I've been relying on the wrong people.

I've always been feeling insecure around people. I'll worry that I'll be a burden; I'll worry that they don't like me; I'll worry that I'm a loser to them. (These are just some of my worries. There's more to it.) Even so, what does this mean? It means I'm a person, with feelings. All around us are people and they have feelings as well.

Recently, I just backed off from a whatsapp chatgroup I created, cause I felt the group of us are falling apart. Friendships shouldn't be like this, but I guessed I was too sensitive. But I didn't really regret doing so, for none of them asked about me (except one). They just left the group as it is. Why? I'm not gonna delve into it.

After going through all these, I now know who I should rely on- God. God is everlasting. God is never-changing and He is always giving us. He gives us love and mercy. Yes, maybe you might feel that if God is that good, why are there so much chaos out there. But isn't going through the worst of times and reviving from the depths of hell a confirmation of God's existence? If there are no troubles and no problems in live, do we still know there is a God? Take for eg, the 'Rain God' in most tribes. Tribes would often do rituals for 'Rain God', because they were facing troubles of drought or troubles of water depletion. It's as simple as that. When we face trouble, rely on God. As for me, I'll rely on God as well. He is my Giver and my Eagle.

Insecurities, you don't have to be terrified of it. I don't now.